n those cb kia... smoke smoke like nothing lidat...
my supervisor still can ask me to hold his cigg while he take something..
wah damn nabei..
i dunnoe why i ditch the other job...
but nvrm... 100 working days n i m off...
the other mistake...
leave it to leehom's song...
hua tian li fan de cuoooo....
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
7:21 PM
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Well i shan bother to talk abt today..
jus got a job... two somemore..
have to pungseh one..
n i had a shoppin list all drawn up with my first month pay...
But then my mum demand from 50 bucks a week to 100 bucks a week...
gosh n now i m dumbfounded...
worst.. still pester me to try for SMU..
i hav no hope.. n i dun wan to study...
well later then...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
11:13 PM
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Well i had nothing to do...
so went to jurong point with my mum...
had lunch... n my mum has this thing..
off eating anything the person beside her is eating...
say its nice...
buy it... eat three bites... n give me the whole plate to finish it..
gosh...
more like a food fest for me...
then walk ar0und jurong point...
nothing much hav change...
bought some stuff...
a new pair of slippers.... red red.. wahaha...
n off home..
p/s:
took this pic of cute pluto...
but damn shit.. my memory card card load...
orh well
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
2:06 PM
It sux when u are still living off ur mum after skool...
but then...
do i haf a choice...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
11:35 AM
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Well sometimes u jus promise ur self.. promise ppl... u would quit smoking..
but there are times when u have to jus be a man...
well smoke three today... to prove some critics wrong abt stuff...
Met up with Agu... long time... got his jap hair cut...
then went to meet up with Zhao at J8...
useless shit... wan to win best employee award lidat...
LJS dinner.. cos i m broke..
then talk shit... really shit stuff...
like after skool lidat the feelins...
but very nostalgic..
p/s: My song of the week..
get a load of Falloutboy
A little less sixteen candles..a little more touch me...
good song... funny mv... go watch it...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
11:07 PM
Sometimes i ask myself... Ask god...
why m i born this way... being a ahem n ahem n ahem...
I dun mind these stuff but i noe people around me mind...
For all i wan is to love her...
But being the man i m now...
it would take a revelation for her to accept me...
God is fair...
well i guess people around me aren't...
If i cant get to love you...
I guess nothing else matters...
ever..
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
2:04 AM
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Ahuh... Well...
Sunday... i m very tired...
After two days of intense activities i think sunday would be a great day to rest my heart out...
So Shawn plz have mercy for me n dun call me... wahahaha....
Others than that... i m havin a speechless sunday...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
12:37 PM
Love...
magical indeed...
In the mood of love.. on can do many weird things...
i seen some...
parcel-ling sweets to the gurl...
writing a song specially for her...
travellin miles to meet up for only 10 mins...
weird... well its love...
but in love itself... there is a thousand different types...
to name a couple:
Romantic Love: Very very intimate passionate... its more like the world lives for the two young hearts. But one bad thing... in long term.. there is little long term stability.. cos as time pass by... these two young heart will face a thousand problems that make their love... a sour one... its up to how they recover that really matters in the long term...
One Sided Affair: People always when broke up complain "i sacrifice everything for him/her but they did nothingin return" well maybe true... but did one ever bother tryin to communicate the problem out with the other...Yes one muz compromise... n he or she does.. he muz make sure the other party gets the idea n they too try to compromise to make that love a better one... in love... one sided affair always dies early...unless communication n compromise works for both..
Unrequited love: Shall i say... the stupidest one of all...i was there...it was stupid... standing by the window... staring at that crush of yours... n doing nothing...there is no hope in this love... get help if u really wan to move on..or jus give up n get a new life...
Game Love: Love is a game to them... like her.. ok whack..shit i think she's passe ok move on... tis is very normal among teens who have no real meaning of love in mind... they jus love for thsake of image n those "cool" stuff... but these love have no long term perspective in mind...its like a game which will end one day... worst of all... warning"might hurt the other party who is tryin to make it work"
Much more in mind... but these four are enough...
love is something magical...
but maintaining one r/s to perfecting...
thats when magic is awed if done right....
outz...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
12:58 AM
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Well heard em' say...
say wad... i dunnoe... jus heard...
Skippin Sat life...
n the Love research...
I got one impt thing to said...
Music... the power of music...
Music can remind u of those times...
Music can change one's mood...
well its magic to some n tragic to others...
So which side are you??
p/s:
touched that my manager from my first coy is askin if i can work for him...
gosh... really touched... for once i felt like a sporean instead of a Ahem
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:13 PM
Friday, March 24, 2006
Before i begin...
i would conclude that jobs n me dun complement...
i got another cock job today... wad comission based pay..
wad good abt it. cmon lah u think i stupid izit..
so now i m hoping the famous amos would realise my working dream...
i need the cash for May super bz bdae bash....
sooo many bdae... like my mum my bro... comes aidah n stuff...
wahz....
well today... the Kbox ppl are damn fker.. i sit there oso muz pay... so i not stupid... walk off lor...
then off to pool.. well really tried to play well... defend and defend...
n poof i lost ANOTHER date.... shit... this makes 2...
then comes a problem... why m i soo lovable..
zhao mc n shawn i dunnoe them... they could touch each other...
but no... i have to be their target...
i m not cute nor chubby nor anything... plz have mercy...
well thats all... n to MC... 21th bdae of urs will be one u wont forget... wahaha...
till then happy 20th bdae...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:07 PM
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Well part one...
First characteristic... Love...
Love is simply define as a deep and tender feelin towards a person that arises from attractive qualities and stuff... Well that is in laymen term... but really... when one define love... he is limiting love to that very certain limit... example a guy tell te gurl why he love her... Bcos of the reason of the good things maybe... than tat guy is limiting love to the good things... when it turns shit.. no we break up no more love...
That is part of the conditinal love.. which could be seen today... Guy love gurl cos of looks... cos she is famous... thats why divorce rate is high cos when things turn bad.. why hold long... go off and start a fresh... who suffer then.. the kids ofcos...
The other one is the unconditional love... where no matter how one bcomes.. one will still love that person.. this is mainly seen in parently love more like motherly love... one mum would even love the kid even if he turns shit...
Well there then to the couples... From what i have seen i could list down a couple types of love that is seen around us.. Romantic love..Mood Swingin Love... Contractual Love.. Best Friend Love...One Sided love and the Matchmadeinheaven Love...
which i will continue someday...
damn bored...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:11 PM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Wad a day wad a day...
Went for some cock job interview..
i think this job is like a scam... i hope its not...
wadever it is.. jus give me a decent pay n i work my ass off there...
then meet zhao... went to go play pool...
big odds... the winner will be the loser "wedding planner"
race to five.... i was sure underdog...
n fk.. i was leadin 4 to 3..
then 4 to 4...
n i FKin miss the hole... poof i lost...
yes zhao grin all u wan...
then follow zhao to do wad i rate as
8 on the sweet n touching but fail on stupidity...
but his was of showin love... so jus follow on with him...
for one thing he was high thruout the day...
murtabak to settle the nite.. n we went seperate ways...
like i say.. wad a day...
p/s: tonite too tired for the research.. tml maybe..
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:37 PM
Well.. i woke up hazzy dazzy...
my mum asked me to take care of my cuz while go out..
gosh... he is jus soo small n cute... so but i could even maintain my eyes...
sleep wake ask him how he was doin...
then sent him to skool...
off to jurong point wit mum...
settle bills... have breakfast...
n followed my mum around...
shes been kept at home forlong..
need to release her stress from my bro...
my bro act tough... go NS cry baby...
gosh even if i really die... i wont tell my mum i m suffering at NS....
well thats all... at nite i shal continue my love research...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
12:48 PM
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Back from midnite snack with my mum..
mcspicy EVM.. its been a long time... well...
In the part 1 instalment of Love...
Let talk about the language of love...
One can profess his love in a thousand ways...
I Love You Wo Ai Ni Aku Cinta Padamu Maine Pyar Kiya
n much much more..
for those who have trouble with sayin these three lines try sign language...
Well for one thing is... that three words..
r they really strong enough to weather thru the rainy days and the blisterin heat...
Many people around me have said this to their special ones..
n i ask them..."how long u think it will last"
cruel qn.. but thats how life is...
we dun take love to be something very precious...
sacred...
we jus love cos we jus wan to feel the gush of blood running thru our veins...
on the other hand.. there are true love...
love where the gurl n guy compromise...
compromise takes two party to work...
but people simply say.. its impossible... of cos it is... haf u tried it...
which comes to the second part... communication...
some great couples could understand each other without sayin aword...
remb ronan keatin "when u say nthn at all"
sweet... if we communicate well... we can compromise well..
all it takes is a try...
less decrease heartbreak n divorces...
thats what i m hopin for...
Tml i shall talk abt the Hamie's 7 Points
Love, trust, understanding, affection, honesty, tolerance and loyalty
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
11:39 PM
Well life is boring...
no work...
so for the next few days i shall research on a topic
n post my comments on this blog...
maybe then i got something nice to write...
heeeeexx...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:05 PM
Sat at home thinkin...
how different life is from the past...
skool was jus simple... attend skool...
talk cock hang out...
but when u leave that place... u are thrown into te big sea...
catch ur fish catch ur fish...
i cant seems to adapt to the situation...
thats how hard life is...
i jus wan to do things i really like...
but life cant compromise to your liking...
well wad can i say....
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
11:29 AM
Monday, March 20, 2006
Wow...
I jus got punk'd tats all i could say...
woke up to receive a call... n my dear fren was sound soo stress up
flash cant work..
being a fren i hurry and get a copy burn into my cd.. and rush off to skool
on the way.. i try to think... izit for sure.. gosh flash cant work.. rarely...
well yeah i got punk'd...
Ms Rena wanted to ask me out to thank me but scared i might reject the offer...
Once the truth was out...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:26 PM
Everytime i always say i wan to die...
but my mum tok to me back... u think u got enuf good deeds to go heaven..
n shit i m scared of death...
well sunday... very relaxing...
hav to wake up early....
no choice mum yelling to tell me to send food to my grandma..
i had a rough nite.. well she dun care...
so went over to sent the food...
really very loyal grandson.... but she been survivin on shit food...
its good she get some good food...
got back home... slack...
great sunday... cold weather.. good to sit back n reflect life...
well... that all...
updated my latest fav song...
Teddy Geiger - For You I Will..
great great song...
but shit the system cant get the song..
so i place in cinderella by Radja...
one of my fav malay bands who brought one of the best songs around...
"Jujur" a.k.a My chemical romance "Ghost of You" style
enjoy...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
3:54 PM
Saturday, March 18, 2006
People like my mother are the real reason why there is a high amount of...
teen suicide...
I myself is havin huge problem with gettin a job for being a FKIN brown skin
now i have to endure her turtorous shit...
These types of parent are good without....
They dun torture u physically..
they make sure u mental state would dry out...
Seriously i might live to see tomolo...
this time its for fkin real...
Friends who dun value me as a guy...
who thinks talkin bad abt me is fun daily activity...
Parents who dun think abt my work process..
n jus blame my final product....
Gosh... 15th floor is not too high....
seriously...
seriously....
seriously.....
die....
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
6:13 PM
Today i have be very helpful towards the committe...
with family members and also friends...
Started with sendin food over to my grandma...
she's been eating like plain porridge everyday... sad sad...
told her to move in wit us she dun wan...
Then got over to skool to help my fren with the flash...
well up to them...
over to swensson's woodlands with slackers and Shawn...
celebrate my bdae... belated.. bought me a jersey of my fav colour..
damn cool guys...
Then go watch Dorm with shawn n Zhao...
Fk zhao strike 3... wad a lanjiao show u pick..
emotional family documentary izit
go watch.. u wont be scared.. u will be touched... weird huhz...
well.. thats all for tonite..
p/s: my bro is bald.. wahahaha bald...
n soon i will be to...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
12:36 AM
Friday, March 17, 2006
Well while taking a break from the taxing Flash...
I shall express myself 10 things i hate to hear from my Girlfriend...
1) Do I look Fat? -God give u eyes to look at urself not at hunks... gosh
2) Do You Love Me? -Why else do i stick around with you if not for this reason.. Its not like i wan to get into Your pants.. *cough cough*
3) My ex treats me better than you? -Yah so great that he is now in bed with some other girl..Move on bitch.
4) Do You Miss Me? -Gosh do you think i got a lot of times to think about the small stuff... I'm not born to serve only you.
5) I would like to have a pet when we get Married? -F.Y.I..I hate pets.. so Please... Please..
6) Do I look Good In this Dress? -What you wan me to say.. Mischa Barton Looks the Best in that dress?... Gosh
7) Why are you so Quiet? -Orh no I m being sentimental.... Gosh... U have snap my wire for god sake... Dun bother to ask wad u have done wrong....
8) I can't meet you today? -I have fkin plan it well... Get all the stuff done.. Cancel all my appointment... N this is ur simple ans... Damn....
9) Why are You talkin to her.. You like her right? -Why cant i communicate with other girls... God sake... We haven sign a contract saying I can only talk to you...
10) *i forgot this one*
p/s: Aidah finally said those words...
But she is overdoin it... plz aidah...
say sparingly
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
12:22 AM
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Sometimes we say things we nvr meant to say...
Do things we regret later...
Jus didn noe why...
Passion doesn't have Patience...
For the decision i Made...
Is one damn stupid one...
Welcome to the world Idiot..
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:24 PM
Well woke up at 5.30 in the mornin to sent my bro to NS...
travel down to CMPB n really make us wait 4 damn hours..
b4 my bro could make way to camp...
well... now i noe.. the hardest part of NS is not the trainng..
but the goodbyes...
well... its jus 3 months...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
2:05 PM
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
A post in tribute to my bro...
soon he will depart for NS..
Civil Defence that is... tml...
Well among all breeds of humans... no matter how bitter u are to them..
siblings are the ppl whom u can nvr prolong ur hate...
cos their blood afterall flow in our veins too...
Well he was a jackass... but it will be a miss for him not to be around...
So as a farewell gift... wit all my remainin damn cash...
which was to be saved 4 friday outing...
was spent on Marlboro Reds...
yes... it will be a farewell present...
n we will smoke together for one last time..
for then... he will dissapear from the crowd...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
4:59 PM
Monday, March 13, 2006
Some people feed on Money
Some people feed on Love
Some people feed on Lust
Some people feed on Hatred
Human beings never have the thought of Peace from the day they are born...
For wad is inside our hearts... we wan to be better
we wan that person to die...
we wan to be with that person...
n when we cant get the way we want... we make ways to make it possible..
Revenge...
There was nvr an angel among us..
Only demons...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
11:10 PM
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Watchin F1 debuts back today reminds me of that time...
sun nite.. watchin racing on tv with mon skool troublin my mind...
would be doin my homework by the TV then customize my wwf deck
while watchin the race...
nostalgic...
But far ahead... now i ended my wad i think the best time of my life...
student life...
now i await m next platform...
like how i await for my first day of skool...
those were the days...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
9:49 PM
Friday, March 10, 2006
10 years ago... there was this 6 person group of friends...
3 guys 3 gurls... They shared a close bond...
Talk about school visit each othe house...
Played with each other power rangers...
Really a bond of friendship that i myself cherish...
when u are a nerd in school... these friends are the people u
look up to in school... But the unthinkable happen...
Two of my friend dissapeared into woodlands without saying goodbye..
I dun even noe they went there till my other fren my other fren whom i m not close told me...
i admit it... i m sensitive... for these facts that i cant understand it...
one of them went to the same sec skool as me... avoided me...
yeah for the simplest reason... me being a born nerd...
one stayed my true fren... up till sec skool n he too dissapeared...
what happen to the term friendship... like it be there dun like it poof...
so why then do i need freinds...
thats why i believe... that... i dun need friends... n i dun label any of them as friends...
friend a taboo word... some word of filth...
what i have are aquantances peeps homies or brothers...
but nvr friends...
we all know human live for one reason...
to be the better kind...
for that... the word friend is a term used witha basic meaning...
be good to someone till u are better than that guy n thrash him up...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:31 PM
Admiring someone from afar is something stalker will do...
But to me.. Its the best form of liking someone...
Some approach them n confess their feelins..
Some meet for tea n talk about the weather...
But i rather sit back n admire you from afar...
Talk to you from distance apart...
About the weather... the days and topics
with no link to confession...
Cos sometimes the best way to love someone is to keep it the way it is..
I'm afraid the next step i made might lose us the freedom to act the way we are today...
Jus wan to keep it the way it is...
Coward might not be the right word...
cos it takes a man to hold his feelins
but it takes a man to confess it...
but why limit yourself to her when u can have them...
hahaha... in the mood of romance...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
4:16 PM
Thursday, March 09, 2006
For the sake of gettin ajob...
I travelled into the eastern county...
expo... walk miles and miles..got lost... n in the end...
found it... went for my interview...
wasn really giving that impression...
so took out my secret weapon... my fren "zhao" wahahaha
n that bitch face turned... fuck man...
nvrm.. then off to orchard... was really tired...
but go down to meet up with zhao mac n shawn...
long time since we meet up talk eat and crap...
n then off home...
life... life .. life.. i jus dunnoe it..
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:32 PM
I couldn believe how many cups of tea i drank today...
Mint tea at Sessha... Teh Tarik at Zam Zam... Teh Peng n My Place n finally teh katai at my place...
i feel like vomitin them all out...
Well today was fine... done up my final research...
Guy n Gurl in Break Up.. Whos fault..
Good topic great opinions... but none gave me the ultimate answer..
Whos the wrong party... well i shall keep the comment to myself...
Sessha with Shawn Rafis n Azza...
then off to eat murtabak and off home...
great time... then help my friend wit his bike touch up...
n we went around on his bike b4 slackin off at coffeeshop..
Its sad how his gf msg him happy bdae on his bdae "Happy Birthday"
thats all... man.. my gay fren wrote more than that...
wahaha thats why.. dude time to break...
p/s: Its damn official... this time i really really really like her... no denyin it
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
3:37 AM
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Shit man... me an my attitude...
Now i noe WhY i have No FrIeNdS..
From the DaY i was BorN to ToDay...
I mean WhO the Fk would WaNt to Be friend with me..
*counts my Friend*
Shit.. I have no hands...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:18 AM
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Well Everyone expects the world to go the way they want...
Then who will get their way?
well fk it.. today's my bdae lets talk abt me...
Well... slack whole day at home..
which is ultimately cool... i shd say...
again i would say a thousand thanks to those who gave me their well wishes...
then went for the family dinner cum my bdae celebration...
swensons was our first target.. damn packed..
so we decided banquet... worst...
so in the end we ended at our common dining spot..
Pizza hut.. sheex... they shd give us an award for patronizin there regularly..
well had a couple of lasagne pizzas and stuff... quite full..
so off home... now my fren ask me to help him with his bike..
dammit.. i aint wasting my time there again...
so comps backs maybe tonite i shall be a compowl.. wahaha
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:19 PM
Yes... Finally i m 20...
sweet shitty goody 20...
Well my comp decided to come back alive on my bdae...
so everythings cool...
Lately been doing nothing but slackin at home...
i think i just surrender myself to the sweet taste of home sweet home..
why work.. cos soon i will have to do it..
well less said... need to do alot of comp stuff...
p/s: I really wan a fuzzy bunny for my bdae.. wahaha
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
1:43 PM
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Well saturday wad do normal teens do..
hang out.. of cos...
but when ur mind is in cloud nine n ur body is in hell..
u stay home with hope it will die soon....
shawn call me out.. sorry dude... i m damn super sick...
mabe next time....
well today we shall talk about guys and manuals..
at chalet over the other time..
wanted to fix the bbq fire... n i jump straight too
here and this goes there and...
Iswari told me... "no i think the manual say its like that"