How to do... i still thinkin...
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11:41 PM
Monday, December 12, 2005
Monday... two test... i was like... fk... still can play game in the morning...
test over... and woohoo.. next test is next year... wee
Skip lect as usual... went to Causeway to eat then pool, smoke and chill at mac...
wads life man.. this is life...
Took a couple of pics usin my fone... and half of it is gone..
to nowhere... wad fuck...
now i m plannin to get the cheap creative cam... DIVI CAM 428... plz help me and tell if u haf any negative toughts on the cam...
Well... now life is relaxin... and hope to stay like his till new year....
Peace...
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10:48 PM
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Each day i feel much weaker...
Havin frequent headaches... my body is much weaker...
I tend to be tired too easily...
my eyesight is failing me...
my hair is droppin each day...
I dunnoe... wad m i suffering from...
i noe i m not sick...
but theres a possibility...
As i lay here waiting... Maybe Death is Lurkin by the corner...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:43 PM
Sunday... relaxful morning.... NOT...
have to go over to my cuz house... help him bathe
after the circumscize thingie....
and trust me... if u haven seen possessed... u shd seen this...
he was like really possessed... spouting nonsence... throwin stuff... kickin arund...
i dunnoe damn scared...
but no choice he is my fav lil cuz afterall...
one more week to the holidays...
seriusly... holidays... imgaine...
TEP to classical.. to straigth IPP to skool....
finally nows a break...
Friday movie was a break...
nice gruesome THE Descent...
Hajjar was like tuggin my shirt... disturbin me...
i mean the show is disgustin.... but its not that scary... plain disgusting...
in the end... zhao iz and hajjar say i got no feelings.. of sumthing lidat...
would appreciate if i haf a gurl who woud enjoy the movie with me...
how cool is that...
worst.. hajar told me this... "hamza why nvr pierce your ear"
wtf... she sayin this... wahahaha super shock...
thats life... haha
its good to spent weekends at home... quiet and fun
except for the neverending animosity between my family members...
wad fuck
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3:20 PM
Saturday, December 10, 2005
ARRRGGGGHHHHHH !!
FUCK ME LIFE...
FUCK MY EXISTENCE...
FUCK THOSE SHITHEADS...
FUCK FUCK FUUUUCCCCKKKK!!!!!!!!!1
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE FUCKIN WORLD...
WISH I LIVED IN THE CAVES...
like those creatures in THE DESCENT
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
9:44 PM
Today has set my mind up for thinkin...
One think... the reason of my existence...
I dunnoe but i have this karma with me...
Tat will have everyone hatin me sooo much....
That much hatred that i dunnoe why...
Izit cos of my race... my face... my attitude...
I jus dunnoe why...
For one thing i'm sure is that i have mix with the wrong crowd...
How i wish i was born a "mat"
where i could understand the true feelin of acceptance...
but i guess... god love to see me suffer...
well of cos he does... i nvr even go for friday prayers...
and here i m sitting... gettin beaten up for unknown reasons...
bein looked down... have my whole family being diss...
takin all the blame for things i nvr did or say...
its jus that m i being tooo shit for life...
i m shit piece of fk up meat...
Decompositon awaits me...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
9:32 PM
Well I guess it was my fault...
Maybe out of some rage i say that zhao was the bad guy...
I couldn remember it... but i think i did it....
So zhao lets all enmity ends...
Shawn didn say it.... he was truly tryi to help Joy
I was jus tryin to poison him...
For some reasons i m yet to find...
Maybe i hate him? maybe i hate U?
i dunnoe...
I msorry my fault...
Case close...
Punish me as u deemd fit...
A brother stabbin another brother...
Wad kind of fkin brother i m man...
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
8:16 AM
Friday, December 09, 2005
Ok lah OK lah....
I m the one who told him that he is tryin to break him and her
I m the one who fkinly say that in the toilet
when there was only Me and Him... and no one else....
In the toilet... at some day which i dun remb being in the toilet with Him alone...
I was the one who told the whole... super nice powerful story....
I m the badguy... I admit it.. No point hiding...
I was the one who mysteriously drag Him out of the group... quietly bring him to toilet and told him all the crapx.....
Wow..... I m soooo evil to bring a fren down..
Amazing.... Amazing.. n i m here to stand trial for a losing war...
After all i M A MALAY WAD....
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12:44 PM
Thursday, December 08, 2005
Wow... a new fresh look....
Great skin...
All thanks to my Lil fren... Aidah....
Thanks Dudetees
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7:04 PM
4.20 pm...
First time in abt a month i was back home this fast...
Amazing... well nothing to do in skool...
Alot of diff dramas from diff aspects building up...
And wad thrills me the most is the triangle r/s of my fren...
Thts life.... all sooo fun and shocking...
Well time to hit the anime and games....
Haha...
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4:30 PM
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Imagine when u really wan to slp but u couldn when u are lyin on the bed....
And it all conjures down to feelinds....
Zhao told me... need a gurlfren... or life sux...
Couldn disagree with him less...
But life sux... want to jio gurl oso cant find one i like...
and now i stick to wonder... which gurl shd i go??
thats life...
p/s: N for the sake of Zhao's bet...
I shall have to jio that gurl...
wads life... fun and fkin at times
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8:55 PM
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
I jus cant understand... when will i ever play the soccer the way i love
Everytime got people tryin to strict the game.. where got fun...
And i m always not good in ppl eye... damn fk man...
Well no point complainin.... I let in that last goal...
Wad life...
Well I see Shawn say his LFTD... i oso wan to rankin wad i see in gurl too... 1st Hair: Impt... The hair muz be shoulder length... Somemore she tie it up... wad ... damn chio...
2nd Face: I loooove those innocent lookin face.... Like no too minahs... or tooo alian... Juz sweet gurl would be nice...
3rd Dressing: NO matter how much clever the gurl is... dressin will potray everthig... n from wad i noe... its damn impt...no question ask...
4th Legs: I love those smooth skin... and not much mosquito or bruises... the leg potray how well the gurl take care of the body lah... I dun wan those bo chap....
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10:42 PM
Monday, December 05, 2005
Sittin here playing game...
project yet to finish...
as per usual we will be the last grp to finish...
quality... i dunnoe... finish yah its done...
Well... jus no life... damn bored...
Wad is Life...
I dunnoe... why ask me.... ask urself...
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5:03 PM
Sunday, December 04, 2005
War is an Illusion Of hatred between mankind
In adult warfare any simple terms of dislikewill be magnified to deaths and bombs...
In teenage warfare... Its more to the punches and the exchange of words
But wad is yet to be understood is why shd this hatred be let to breed....
Negiotiations doesn work anymore... Actions are made due to abrupt feelings...
As i stand here watching... wad god plans a better world... stand to be torn apart... by humans...
P/s: Cursed the two test on mondays....
Goodbye weeksends helloe to yet another week...
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8:43 PM
Saturday, December 03, 2005
Fri...
God gave me the will... I get thru the damn project...
Fk that teacher... sooo cant understand the group...
Then i had to go down since no choice....
Agu's bdae... to ChinaBlack we went...
Like i say i super hate clubbin...
Fren sake i go but i will nvr will again...
Okok songs... n the environment wasn wad i like...
Zhao got drunk and he do things he nvr knew he did...
Got home... sleep...
1 half hour later mum wake me ... shit to market i went...
Life sux when u haf to push yourself to make people happy...
N now i wish you weren his....
+ EmO LoVe StUck +
8:13 PM
Friday, December 02, 2005
One thing...
my fren ask me... clubbin tml?
I say back...
Clubbing ur head... i cant even balance my balance sheet...
Fk life...
we all knew it...
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12:34 AM
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