Let Me Love You.

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

My original edit was full of curses that they reject and made me rewrite it again...

So here it go...

Well today went to Shawn house to mahjong...

Wahz first time play till that stress....

I first half lost $5.20 even with my shifu beside me... damn my lucky star is sleeping..

but soon i recovered all my lost and poof... i break even...

fk no point playing lidat....

but ok fun fun...

then me Zhao Mac shawn off to causeway..

eat chicken at cold storage... and off to arcade...

yah damn fkin bored wad.. so spent time there....

n went for supper at long john... fun...

n poof... we went home...

so enuf say tml will be a better day.... till then

This is a re edited version Of Kenji Wu Wo You Zui for her....

well fk it... she dun deserve my effort..

Thanks for acting like you Cared...

If You jus hate me then say it...

Bitch i want to torture you... Kill You...

The embarressment is worth death for me....

n yeah its you bitch... dun turn and look elsewhere...

B.I.T.C.H..

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
11:32 PM

Monday, January 30, 2006

Well wad do we add to my slack and peaceful day today...

A nite out that is...

My fren jus bought his new rxz bike last sat.. so he asked me for a test drive..

We went to his grandma house to get some stuff...

First time i tasted the highway on a bike..

n alot of stuff flash into my mind... like asif it was my last moment...

things like my coffession to the gurl
How much i treasured my parents n sblings
how much my friends and brothers have cheer up my life...

but after some time.. i was tasting the wind...

fun... later hang out at KFC...

grab some bites... talk about the usual topic...

Gurls...

n then head home... mums grumbling for tooo much late nite outs...

so ok tml...big day...

Gotta play mahjong with Shawn Mac n Zhao...

wish i wont make a fool of myself...

So my lucky star... plz pray for me....

Thanks.. love ya...

p/s:
My shoulder hurts... shux... Is ShE on my shoulder.. WAHHHZ

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:50 PM

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Joke of the Month

Wake up in the morning.. first thing to do... report to gf...
Come home from work... first thing to do... report to gf...

Well thats my bro...

So well bored.. so i came up with this thing... deep from my heart...

10 Things i would do if i like her

1) I would msg her first thing in the morning and finish her day off with another msg
2) Bring down a guitar and sing her a song from the bottom of my hair (eventhough i cant sing)
n Create a whole album of songs of how much she means to me in my heart
3) Talk to her for at least an hour a day about nothing but her life n rants... even though i feel like slappin her face at times... heex
4) Be right there under her block if she needs me... anytime
5) Let Her win every game we play... even if i have two ace in my hand (banban).. i will goreng myself to death
6) Go out shopping with her for hours even when i jus ended my 2 hour soccer game
7) I would make sure all her enemies nvr exist around her... Phycho rite haha
8) Arrange for her tons and tons of poems for her to look upon (Taj Mahal to Great Wall Of China)
9) Meet her up for coffee every week without fail to talk about us
10) Say to her word for word... Face to face that i like her

Mushy But It is True...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
11:54 PM

Thought the day would go slow n relax...

well it went the way i wanted... had a great weekend i shall say...

But it went destroyed when my mum told me to fetch her at the mall since my grandma bought tons of stuff...

Shit...

Went down n my grandma treated me to macdonalds... so not bad afterall...

n gave me 10 bucks for my trouble... well certainly not... its like easy cash...

but ok... heard them talk those aunty stuff....

highlight:
My grandma told me that i one day when get married i would be a "slave" to my wife n not that close to my mum.. ooo strong words... but i'm afraid it might happen....

then played with my lil cuz... hes grown fat... one day at pri 1 skool he would spen $3.50 on food... gosh... 3.5 tims the amount i spent in pri 1 that time...

but still he is chubby n fun to play with... cute cute...

got home n as per usual... analyzin in the internet...

todays topic.. compatibility..

So lets end with this interesting word they gave for one of the signs against mine...

Taurus is a Fixed Sign and Pisces is a Mutable Sign. Where Taurus is steady, stubborn, practical and focused, Pisces likes the feeling of moving from one thought to the next according to fancy. Taurus's rigidity can hamper Pisces's flexibility; Taurus will need to learn to let Pisces flow. As a gift in return, Pisces will be a very supportive and loving partner. Pisces can show Taurus that mutability is sometimes better than a fixed determination to do things one way, and one way only.

so most words... i would be controlled guy in the future... with any wife i get.. gosh..

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
8:27 PM

Saturday, January 28, 2006

Was Bored so i did a couple of internet stuff... the results...

Fortune cookie:
My fortune...

Your love light shines on another.

Hmmp... what does it means.... shine on another...

New Love? I wonder...

Crystal Ball:
My Qns:
Am I compatible with ****?
(note: Number of stars does not count for each letter)

Ans:
Don't do something that you may soon regret..

Ooooo... ok i seethe contradictions there...

Luck Meter:

Love: 80%
Career: 40%
Money: 0%

Soo true.. I m soo broke rite now... n i forsee myself getting a job soon...
n basically i m sooo in love....

Love Meter:

Love meter say its Luke Warm..

Wahahaha... well its true... theres in no feelins developed yet...

Message in a Bottle:

Take some extra time at getting ready today, someone is watching you!

Wooo stalker... or future gurl... wooo its exciting..

Well maybe they r true... or plain faux...

But its fun tryin them.. haha

Leave here with my msn nik for the last day of new year:

Happy New Year... May You Be e Best Bitch This Year

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
9:38 PM

If I ask would you say yes?

Together We the very Best...

You know that I'll be truly blessed

For Everyday I Love You...

....................................................

Words...

They could melt a gurls heart...

But i dun believe them.....

Why cant they see the guys he way they are...

We all dress up to impress them...

Well i dun believe in that...

Well maybe i wont get them...

Sacrifices...

Love for sacrifice...

Sacrifice for love...

Why sacrifice... its not tru love...

true love is abt accomodatin to one another...

What i could say...

First love... True love... One n only love...

My bros help me change things...

Paired me up with other gurls....

Its great help guys...

But how can i love them when my heart is all filledup...

Its fake its soo no true...

Pieces are sentimental.. i believe in that...

n maybe i will watch her walk the aisle...

n maybe i will watch her grow her kids up...

n maybe i will watch her live till her ripe old age..

but one thing for sure...

i'll always be the guy waiting by the bay... not moving... no doing anything...

waiting for you...

Lost Love...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
2:18 PM

Finally a Hectic week ends...

very tiring...

Went to Queensway to shop... well window shoppin for my case...

Shawn Zhao Mac n Yihong...

They bought stuff n i grumble stuff..

n We planned to do a last minute shirt n shoe..

Soon...

n then off to ikea for some hotdogs n smoke...

still got time for Ban luck... wahaha

then shawn n mac n me... went to bugis...

Shawn got his sorta dream shirt...

n i got paiseh... how in hell i noe she wasn zhang ziyi but gong li..

they all look the same...

then starbucks for some chillin moments...

n struck of mind... off to sessha...

over there... great environment... n we tok super serious stuff...

Future... Lover n Family...

n to finish things off... talk abt probability of Shawn n Mac to bzzzzzz..

well tired.. so lets end off with this...

I wan to love you but i cant see the possibility to it...

zzzzzzz

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
12:33 AM

Friday, January 27, 2006

Well friday morning...skip lesson to accompany my mum to the market...

Its the good exercise for me n also some routine i have to do everyweek...

Last nite supper was great... walked 30 minutes to enjoy the nasi lemak at boonlay with mac...

Imagine... then walk home 30 minutes... damn sleepy...

n well today... haf to go to Queensway... The dudes are yet to finish their spree to New Year...

So later dude...

P/s:

Its time to Enjoy life... She's outta my life....

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:56 AM

Thursday, January 26, 2006

hOw in The world can anyone lose 10 nasi lemak in a ban luck(21) game.

Thats my fren nik...

well Mac.. if you are playing against me with my lucky star... anything is possible...

but to place thing aside...

Vomit... no feel like vomitiing.... n i m not pregnant...

Damn i dunnoewhy...

Today... didn wan to go out... cashless...

But forced to...

So Shawn Mac ZHao Zhong wei...

Go orchard get their new year stuff...

n eat subway... talk nonsense... and ended up at Cuppage...

we played to same truth truth game...

n thats when mac lost his game to me...

i was lucky lah... didn noe why...

n the rest is history...

So enuf say lets end with this...

What goes around comes around... what goes up muz come down...

To the gurl who lost her stuff....

Haf no worries... Solutions is nvr dry....

if the brain is used that is

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
11:10 PM

Well i m stuck with one thing today...

I really dunnoe wad i shd do...

Shd i move on or wait for the boat to arrive again....

I mean waiting has been a tiring game for me...

I wan to move on... But she jus keep poppin into my mind...

Its hard... Brainwash My brain...

Maybe then i will move on...

Its nvr easy...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
1:38 AM

What would u do if u haf a test tml... n u haven study?

Of cos i would head home early n start studying...

but for unknown reason... i headed to orchard...

Zhao n Mac got rejected for interview... haha

n we went to do some stuff then... wit Shawn rafi n azza n people..

Highlights...

Azza n Azura got stalked by some retard... wah abit scary n shiok..

Shaked him off easily..

Played pool...

Played Blackjack at back alley..

Talk cock...

Table 114... The Place... Secret between Me Zhao Mac n Shawn

n Went off home...

Quite n experience...

Well i Shall Leave with this for today...

你说你身边多了一个他
之后伤人的话你不想讲

You said you'd found someone else
But you didn't want to say anything else that would hurt me.

Adapted from Bu Xie Ji Nian by Kenji

Thank You For Making Me Wear Green Cap for the second time...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
12:01 AM

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Well My comps back YEAH... well not so...

data lost... but still miss my comp...

Soccer was horrid... when i m injured and force myself to play..

Its nvr fun... n so... well... Ok la... at least i did play abit...

Well nothing much to blog since i m alll drained out...

So lets leave today with one thing...

So Good karma is nvr good at all...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:26 PM

Well comp is yet to come back so have to be content with bloggin in skool...

Well about Monday... Well had a test.. yeah... nvr study do wad to do...

Copy into the exam.. Everyting was planned...

We copied likepros but... i didn noe wad to copy... fk rite...

So wads gone is gone... went to yishun with gayboy...

Meet up with Shawn Agu n Rafi..

Well they studying for TPDD.. heard they say it was hard...

then...

eat up at KFC... eat abit...

n they jio me to play blackjack...

well my unlucky streak nvr ends...

yeah i won...

best part was Agu was banker...

Me zhao n shawn called upon our lucky stars...

Zhao had S with her Shawn with her Y n me with my R....

n unbelievably i emerge winner...

in five rounds..

Ace Ace..Ace Jack..Ace Ace..Ace Ninee.. n King Seven..
60+40+60+20+20=2 bucks
yeah won like fk wahaha...

n zhao one final word b4 i go...

May u fkin Rot in Hell.. Peace...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
12:54 PM

Monday, January 23, 2006

Well two days without comp...

Well firstly... the story is not based on my life.. jus a story i think off...

N i will come out with more... fictious..

Well i shall talk more when my comp comes back home...

Till then.. i shall leave with this...

Nvr be too confident cos if you are...

u ending up failing like me...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
1:18 PM

Saturday, January 21, 2006

My fren always teased and questioned me on why i always follow my mum to the market...

well for the simple reason that it the only time i could spent time with my mum....

n its kinda cool ya noe...

So today i shall not dwell on my life but i shall share this simple script that might interest some ppl...

Boy n Gurl... they have been childhood frens since primary skool...

talk together, walk home together and also does homework together at times..

Boy was a nerd when they enter the sec skool phase... gurl was a belle...

In sec 3 times... the guy confess his love to her.. which she accept with no doubts...

well they went out for about 2 years or so when they enter the tertiary phase...

went to diff skool... that when the guy found out that the gurl was playing scandal with him...

he loved her soo much but jus cant be the second fiddle... so tey broke up...

was a sad story for the guy... triedto live on... forget her...

but first love wasn always the best..

thats when he found this other gurl... sweet looking gurl.. ayear younger than him..

went out together... talk much... and do those stuff...

they soon grow attached to one another... but guy to much wantingto love her he cant...

for the simeple fact the he loves that childhood fren of his...

Then one day his childhood fren of his called him to meet up.. sad

then he went down... to see her with a guy... they were more like quarrelling..

most likely they broke up at that spot...

the guy watch him walk away with mixed feelings...

happy cos shes single... guilty cos he dev feelings for that other gurl.. angry cos the guy did that to her..

walk up to her... gave her a piece of tissue... she cried on his shoulder..

the guy was speechless... he didn noe wad to say... thats when he received a msg..

the other gurl msg him sayin she wants to meet him... she jus quarrel with his dad.. n she left the house and in search for a comforting shoulder...

well caught in a moment... wad would he do??

Stay or go...

well i dunnoe... what would u think??

..:: Adopted from the Lost Love script ::..

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:58 AM

Friday, January 20, 2006

I shall officially declare my CMFI teacher as the wantoactcutebutcantmakeit teacher...

Yes did nothing at skool... i think i spent more time going to and fro from skool then spending studyin time there....

Well my test came back... bad side: i failed good side: i got 2 times my expected marks... good

So between goin out wit frens n spending ime wit family...

I decided to choose the later one... since i need to spent more quality time with my family....

n found out acouple of things

Kebab at Banquet Jurong point is a waste of money
Even the pasar malam is tryin to sell original stuff..
My mum is tryin to block my trip overseas (now hows that for a day)
n my sis wanted to commit suicide by walkin across with an incoming bus...
idiot...
n much more...

well much to say this is a family week...

yah...

"lookin"forward to it...

One glance b4 i leave:
Visit Robin's blog... it will be worth ur reading time...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
4:55 PM

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Do You Believe that true love exist?

That when its broken unexplainable things would happen...

It makes me wonder, if we are broken.. shd i die and haunt her life for wad she did....

or stay alive protecting that very soul of hers...

True love...something compliated yet easy to be seen

Watch Mae Nak... well scary? i rather say its funny

The director could not sift out the boring part and make the story abit more captivatiing

n there are funny parts... i mean for sure he dun wan to portray it but seriously its funny...

Watch it... You will have mix feelings abt it..

On the other hand... my leg got better today... my be my personal massage to did to my leg...

Got a better quality one from my mum... it was like ARGHHH but i noe its good for me...

Well weekends here... this week a totally family week...

thats wad my mum told me...

today lets all leave with this...

A teacher gave three young kids a piece of paper...

SHe told them "do wad ever you wan to the paper that potray your happiness"

well they got to work... and when its time she went to look at them...

The first one drew his family a house the bright sun and a dog...

When asked he said "i love my family my dog my house, they make me happy"

the next painting was a fish tank...

when asked she say "watchin the fish swim freely thru and fro makes my heart so happy"

fair enough, lastly the teacher when to the last one and saw nothing.....

a blank piece of paper

she told the gurl "ooo thats nice, are you trying to say that the the beauty of the white paper is enouhg to make you happy that you dun't haf the heart to draw on it, izin it so?"

the gurl said no which shock the teacher..why then

the gurl replied "i was too lazy to draw"

goes to say tht perception are deceiving.. they trully are... and they are nvr correct... most of the time...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
11:38 PM

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Untitled

You look into my eyes
With all these question unasked
Wad am i suppose to say
When you're my one and only

These words they hurt so bad
You say you had enough
Why cant we just sit and talk
Girl you left me just too soon

You know i'm truly yours
You know we'll make it thru
And now i jus wanna to say...

I Love You...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
8:13 PM

I still wonder how randy n paula become judges for the idol....

They lack seriousness...

Well they are not my worries...

MY swollen leg turn to my worst phase...

Trust me it hurts like hell...

Walk to skool and back... poor guy no money for buses...

n how i wish i was flying instead of torturing my feet...

n Worst... my mum told me to go over to my grandmas for massage...

Dude... its like sooo far... u dun expect me to walk there...

SO now.. i have a dead leg with no bandage or wadosever...

Like i always believe... cant depend or trust no one...

Got to massage it myself...

Well thats all...

I''ll leave today with this...

The pain was gone the moment i saw your smile...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
7:44 PM

Woken up at 6.15 am....

Wish i could sleep... I'm tired...

but the whole nite i was awoken by the constant pain....

yah mind you it hurts like hell...

My toe... i have to live thru it... very very painful sleep...

God wad i do to deserve that...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
6:55 AM

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Well before i begin... there are some things i need to clarify...

first... I dun hate my mum... to put it straight...

Jus thats she is too naggy and controling of me,...

Second... If u get mass msg abt me loving someone or sumthing...

dun believe.. itsall aplot to make me lose face...

Well today then...

Nothing worth to talk about...

PLayed soccer in the rain.. shiok feeling...

then played against this team... damn lousy sia them...

but we lose... cos of some big hole in midfield... big big hole...

n i was flung off by a super dangerous tackle by some asshole...

seriously.. this time its hurts like hell....really cant breathe...

fk man... well thats not all... then another ass hole...

PURPOSELY butt my chest... FK... where has the fairplay gone....

n cos of that... my chest become like marshmellow being squeezed...

n i chipped my tooth.. fk. fkk. fkk...

really idiots.... i promote fairplay... they are too young to learn them....

well today i shall sign off with this...

My bro bought Viceroy reds...

typical cigg for mats...

ask him u damn cb.. nvr accomodate me and buy lights...

then he say... "why shd i.... i wan to solo smoke wad"

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:01 PM

Monday, January 16, 2006

Whoever invented the Monday blue...

My monday was damn hell hectic...

Was super rushin for my proj... wtf man...

Yah no peer evaluation... She lived to see another day...

lucky bitch....

to do a shit job is one thing... to copy plainly from webbie is UNFORGIVABLE...

well on top of that... screwed my CRM AGAIN....

i got a great script but i printed the wrong one and poof i got the shit marks...

well to causeway i go then reflecting...

Shawn n Zhao... asper usual...

torturin my life...

Makin me an object of gayhood... and also pairing me with the

most "sensational"gurl around... yahyahyah

So mackey... my purpose in life is simple...

to make people life happy at the expense of mine..

i shall leave with this...

when your life is down... jus look into a pic of someone you like smiling...

n things will feel afresh... i know mine always did...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:28 PM

Beautiful Dawn.... n Now i HIGHHH...

Its hard to believe you remember me..

Wahz i hear this song over and over again now...

Finnally 70% of QM is done and CRM is done...

thanks Shawn for the song....

really make me high....

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
1:31 AM

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Its Sunday again... a feein of dejavu...

Well Went to attend my cuz gathering... she gave birth to twins.. and sort of some malay tradition..

Well ate some good food...

N we tried to fly a kite... but tried n tried n failed...

SO we settled for games... n talk abt stuff...

PLayed wit my lil nieces and nephew....

Wasn a bad outing afterall...

Burned the floor with the sparklers....

we hahaha created a big "fire"

yah.... its was a flashbang.... burned my eyes...

but overall... fun day funday...

now... two proj... chiongggg....

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
7:35 PM

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Well Doin my QM has made me realize how much i love my god...

Pray hard Pray Hard...

Well more importantly after wad happen ytd to my fren...

My brain rack up with this...

10 Things Why I like Her...

well here it goes...

10) The way she smiles jus captivate my heart
9) Her shoulder length straight silky black hair... Insensate my my eyes...
8) The way she talks... Not ladylike, straight to the point and frank speaker
7) The way she makes me laugh and smile even though i knows she herself izin feeling high
6) The way she dress herself... Not too minah not too skimpy... Jus the way i like it...
5) Those delicate fine minutes... Jus a while... But worth the while
4) The way she characterize herself, childlike yet matured when needed
3) Her slim line... Not like Hourglass yet not like elephant
2) The way she hides her sadness without the need of consolation
1) Cos she is simply just her

Cheesy No... Jus want to say...

*secret*

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:49 PM

I jus cant understand my mum...

When i m out she keeps callin me askin me where i m

n when i m at home she gave me the cold shoulder...

wtf... how i feel like cuttin my fone line...

Well today as per usual..

Market in the morning..

Off to holland V with shawn n mac to get their hair cut...

Good ambience... well dressed ppl...

N went to town to taste the superband... Sux...

Food...sux

Pool...losin so sux

Find clothes... Cant find the one we like so sux...

Well in the end it wasn that bad actually...

Jus that how i wish i could spend today with a gurl off in town...

Would be much more romantic...

But dream on dude... dream on..

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
8:01 PM

Friday, January 13, 2006

Its Friday the 13... Well serious it really went wrong...

How it begin.. I did like super fk for my CMFI...

WAD i studied totally didn come out for the test... Power rite...

Now i jus wait... confirm will fail...

Then haf to wait for shawn to finish his proj... slow...

Went to orchard... Eat pool and talk cock...

Alot of unlucky things happen....

Lets jus keep it alow...

For all i noe...

She was a nice gurl and he jus couldn see it... Sad... How i wish tat my green cap gurl was like her...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
11:39 PM

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Jus when i taut that my study career is over...

A bright spark made my day better....

Got B+... unbelievable rite... for IPP...

Now finally I moved to 2.949..

Nvr did i went abv 2.8 Well now i m aimin to leave with 3.0...

Possible Possible...

Well today wasn muvh talk...

Got pissed off in the morning with ppl who nvr wan to listen to me...

I m a nice guy... but why step on my head... i dun get it...

Then did nothing for the whol day...

N i didn smoke... three days... the knot on my finger is working well... thank god...

well tml is friday....

p/s:
Love concierge...

Malay marry chinese soo mah fan until lidat... wahahaha...

hard hard....

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
9:46 PM

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Top three songs for this week...

I would recommend James Blunt-High/Goodbye My Lover.. Touch choice to pick... But both song does rocks man...

Next to it would be Lifehouse Blind... great song... very nice and very those emo rock... good song to hear...

Last would be hmmpz... Craig David Dun love you no more.. simply those classic breakup songs...

Well today... simply did nothing that is worth toking...

Lost 5 bucks in the pre gambling season.... sux rite...

but on the good note... I have not been smokin for two days...

thanks to my determination and my knot on my middle left finger..

Peservere...

p/s:
after much realization i found out... I m a super green capist..

Got ditch by bitch a couple of occasions... damn useless man...

Well i doubt whether i m a man now...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
9:25 PM

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Expectations are sumthing that will raise someone ability up to a level that he or she would be able to perform better than before...

Goals are something that starts and aspire someone as he or she goes on to reach the expectation...

If they dun exist... forget about the As... msg to my cuz who finds it so hard to understand simple stuff...

Well to my story then...

This morning was like soo cold and nice to sleep in...

Probably when you guys was slpin thru the morning... i was awoke by a vigorous shook to my leg..

I was like omg is there an earthquake.. but well no it was my mum...

Need to go grandma house to finish up the cooking..

by 710 we went off... walk there.... n i played PS2 when i reach there.. so to awoke my self before the big tide...

Then after 1 hour... start helpin around the kitchen...

I felt like those extra chef in the iron chef show.. helpin my grandma who was surely the iron chef...

Fun i shd say...

The got home to change an went out again...

Met my uncles aunties and cuz there....

Didn felt like eating.. n PS2 was terrorise by my cuz... who doesn seem to let it go...

So we laid back watch some shows and talk crap...

Thats why i took a great video... my three cuz fightin those reenactment...

when one of my cuz did sort of a flying kick and landed poof on the floor..

shit he was crying...

all on tape.. cool but my cuz accidentally deleted it.. fk...

well no luck... well other than that... the day went well..

so to u all.. happy goat, sheep and cow killin day....

Peace

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
8:19 PM

Well some quick snap of today b4 i go to the main point...

went to my grandma house to help with the cooking...

seriously..wad i did there.. not all gurl could... serious...

I m soo proud of me.. i oso mop the floor... damn sticky...

n then i sat there and played ps2 games... cool up till midnite...

so great day...

well to the main point...

Every guy will tink that there would be one gurl that would be the perfect one for him

The gurl may no be his but still shes the one...

for e.g

Zhao thinks that congpei is the one for him.. well from his wallet evidence i see...

As for Joy he feels that Esther is the only one...

n for Shawn... hmmpz we'll skip that.. haha

The point is one gurl.. the one for you...

Well i have a gurl that i always liked.. no loved...

she might hav left me long ago but feelins still are there...

Zhao called me green cap... well haha i dun care....

wads matter is there would be that one gurl who would really give u the feelin no other gurl would...

But i dunnoe.. something in me tht makes me soo unwanted..

seriously...

like i got a repel sign in me...

My love one rejected me...

The one i liked thinks i m unwanted

they are more like.. ok ure lonely.. lets give u a chance to date me out...

man its not like i m dying tml that i need this pitiness...

plz... "dun love me for fun gurl, let me be one gurl, let me for a reason let the reason be love" from boyzone...

I hope the future would be much the way i would hope to be...

N she will be loved... as always by me...

Peace...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
12:08 AM

Monday, January 09, 2006

Jus came back from sending my cuz to his second week of pri 1 life...

well i think hes coping well... good for him...

well today woke up to do abit of QM... well abt 50% done...

i was at the holiday mood aredy...

with the songs and the cakes... wahaha soo fulfilling...

then sat back for some tvs... n wait till skool time arrive...

realy dun wish to go skool today...

holiday mood man...

but i guezz no choice...

haf to...

well i leave you guys with a snippet:

once i was watchin House on AXN.. fkin nice show..

then that guy... House made some sarcastic funny remark..

then i would laugh.. n my sis would say.. "whats soo funny"

n i would say "cos ure stupid"

n my other sis would laugh and say "ok thats funny"

well u wouldn really understand... muz be there to understand...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
12:28 PM

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Woke up.. it was raining...

n i wish that i would stop soon

went to sentosa with mac zhao shawn and macshawn gfs...

well it was still raining...

used up all my cash to buy concession...

so was basically cashless...

ate breakfast at 7eleven.. man it sux...

n we took tram to to sit around.. it was rainin man...

ni dunnoe how... my slippers broke... fk...

so basically i was hangin on that slipper... haha

then we went to ferry terminal for lunch and some parrot show...

well i took pic with the parrot.. amazing.. esp when i m super scared of animals..

then we went back to siloso beach to play around the raining sea..

then bath... i was sick... confirm sick by then...

then went to eat at bedok... man the malay food sux...

then went home by cab... easiet was back...

n when i reach home.. my mum saw me n lable me like i m a wanted criminal...

its amazing how well she is able to talk until u feel damn guilty...

well who cares cos now...

not only i m broke..

BUT I M SICK...

fk man

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
9:21 PM

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Well first ly i would like to say two things...

Thank you to Joy for pangsehin us again...

n Sorry to my bros team for being sick n unable to play soccer..

Well sick or not sick..

i went to jurong point for lunch... my mum's treat...

i ate sweetsourchic with rice n the noodles with some tempura chic...

hahaha i was stuffin myself... n my sis say... wah body small eat like wad...

well wad can i say...

So then... orh soccer...

no choice.. sick sick oso haf to accompany them.. they say i haven playef with them for a while..

so plauyed... in a damn muddy field....

with the rain pouring n me being sick..

woohoo... i m goin to be sooo sick soon...

n if man utd draw or lose tml.. fk them... we were playing a worst field yet we perform well...

then sat back and watch US Marshall.. good show...

n now maybe goin out to meet old frens...

p/s:
My mum like finally tok to me n my bro that she would like a good malay gurl as our wife.. not that hardcore type...

Malay gurl... guess i haf no choice then...

wouldn wan to dissapoint her... but soon i shall go hunting... i need to fulfil my career first...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
9:36 PM

My dad once told me that giving way is the best way to make friends...

but wad if ppl jus take advantage of you then...

I jus cant stand it at times...

When you are treated like a punching bag...

when you cant do anything when ppl mock your family...

When people jus simply take advantage of you...

it makes me ponder... are they really my frens...

or are they here to make my life miserable

I dun like to react but it might be some time before i haf to...

Goin around sayin i like her and her...

forcing me to say i like someone so i wont face embarresement...

So lets make things straight...

I hate being a punching bag...

I simply hate ppl to mock my family...

n i HATE all those gurls i said i liked...or you guys say i LIKED...

n seriouslly i wan to resolve to negiotiations...

Cos anything other than that is sooo not me....

n i lay wondering here...

Was my dad's words actually wrong??...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
12:23 PM

My fren told me that hes not leading her on...

Well wad he things is normal may not be normal...

His perception of r/s and love and kissin is far to liberal for the gurl...

who might be more conservative when it comes to love...

So wad can i say... jus be responsible for your actions...

well its been like three days now and i m yet to recover...

n i dunnoe why... nvr been sick for this long... fk man...

nvrm soon my antibodies will take care of the sickness..

n to add to ytd misluck...

I was wearing all black....

black the unoewad colour..

n to add to it... ytd was one week t friday the 13...

eerriee?? i dunnoe.. wahahahalalala

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
12:14 PM

Friday, January 06, 2006

Weekend is here n i m damn sick.... well wad can i say...

today was officially my most unlucky day... for this year... maybe

Went to skool... did our presentation.. damn suey got warning letter...

wad a way to start my day... scan card.. now the scanning system cant be trusted liao...

well did a okok presenttation.. shit man... i was born a good presenter...

but today my luck wasn with me...

so went to eat and played some cs while waiting for CRM...

n the second unlucky thing happen...

I FAILED my CRM test

wad proved to be a common sense topic.. i flung it..

how cool is that...

well cant blame i haf no brain...

then we did a "call n disturb the people"thing during lesson..

well call Mac PizzaHut n Canadian...

wahaha zhao started (i wan pork pizza) wahaha

fun fun...

then went to lot 1 with shawn zhao n azza...

finally didmy tertiary bus pass.. wahaa

n my last unlucky thing happen... i haf to find 45 bucks to buy concession..

n this is my broke season... fk..

ate at this restaurant.. ok ok only... free rice reflls.. wahaha wack...

n slack at mac.. n WHY DO I HAF TO SMOKE...

i lasted for two days... but life lead me to that stick...

well wads life rite....

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
9:31 PM

Thursday, January 05, 2006

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+ EmO LoVe StUck +
11:26 PM

People have Monday Blues...

well i have Thursdays Blues...

Till now i m yet to recover... damn damn sick...

Well lets get on with Reflections then...

Ytd.. did up my entre projects.

Finally its half done.

The went to sent off Hussy...

Well ate at BK.. been a long time..

N took pics... wahaha "power power"

cool especially when everyone wore black...

hahaha...

then today.. hmppz...

project presentation.. went smoothly...

did a bit of QM.. well almost say we got the anss.. hhaa

then went home... really need to sleep.. sick sick...

My bro is fkin noisy... like disrupt my peaceful sleepin time...

So i did up my ppt for CMFI tml.. its done...

Now i wait for tml... the weekends...

p/s:
thanks Zhao for doin the survey at Far east plaza and placing my name and number

at that time...

Now the coy keeps calling me like as if theere izin anyone else to call up...

fk man...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
10:40 PM

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Tell me wat makes a good project...

its when all the points are soooo correct..

Well then wad makes a group proj...

Its when everyone's contribution matters in the proj...

N why the fk m i feelin lik an extrra...

U ppl told me to write it up....

yeah research... and did to my SUPER very best..

n this is wad u return... BY WRITIN UR OWN to cover up my main points..

Wad are u tryin to hint here...

that i m of no point to the group...

that wad i wrote is utter shit...

HEY HEY HEY.. i did my research.... n its all correct...

ITS WAS SOOO TECHNICAL

n why muz u destroy that piece...

U ARROGANT BASTARDS....

if u wan to change... can u FKIN tell me first...

wads wrong with ur brains...

i m 2.8 but i NVR gave shit works...

U GUYS BETTER DIG THAT...

FK U UNGRATEFUL BASTARDS...

may god kill u guys off...

this aint jus stupid blog... this is one which i really meant it..

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
2:57 AM

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Well tuesday... totally waste of skool time day...

i dunnoe why i haf to go for that tutorial....

really common sense...

well other than class... had to finish up on projs..

hard hard... alot in a short period of time...

then off to soccer...

yah fun... i got kick on my ankle...

stright shot to my balls...

swing to my lips...

wow... its like i m the crash dummy lidat...

and the last game we play... wad hell...

each team jus cant kill the game..

went to eat S 11 after that..

n went home take cab half way thru... lazy to walk home...

wahaha... now i need to strive thru my proj... fk life man.. fk it..

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
11:54 PM

Monday, January 02, 2006

Wow i didn believe it... my 100 post...

well i got alot alot of things to say today... wahah where do i begin..

well i haf to rush my housework... no choice...

then went to meet shawn at jurong point....

we went to eat at banquet... well the chicken was nice but the rice didn appeal me....

so is the soup...

then well i noe my new year resolution is to quit puffing...

but then.. my fren influence me to buy a pack...

n poof i slurge on a pack..

how do i stop puffin man... muz find a motivation to...

maybe think of a gurl n stop cos of her... maybe it will work.. haha

then we went to coffee bean to chill out... joined by mac n his gurl...

tok nonsense....

well alot of things..

the playboy issue.... wahaha its a joke lah... its ok ure a nice guy... *puke*

then went to 77 st.... and my fren steal something there....

fk rich ppl oso wan to steal... wad life man...

but nvrm its their life..

then off to play soccer...

well need to take some pics for my proj... was like a moving cameraman rather than a soccer player....

played for my bros team....

n trust me we were like thrash in the first half of game....

like we totally lost momentum..

but dunnoe how.. we came back... n poof we thrash the other team...

well we won by 1 to 2 goals..

it was fun... n the young player... the upcoming star...

trust me he's good.... very good.. somemore only pri 2... poweer rite...

well now i need to do proj... seriously start on it... have been laggin far... wahha...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
7:37 PM

Monday morning...

wow i jus slept through sunday nite....

fk man... wanted to do my flash... now is far from finish...

nvrm soon it will be done...

Monday morning... woke up...

wow alot of projects to touch up...

soo i m begining soon...

n soccer at 5.. todays edition... small kiddies....

playing with them... well no choice.. i haf to kick some soccer...

so two weeks past... 5 weeks to go....

soon enuf i m ready for ns...

Peace

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
12:30 PM

Sunday, January 01, 2006

2005 has come and past...

The days were fun the times were great

wake me up when 2005 end...

haha.. its the new year....

Well wanted to sleep thru sunday morning...

but my mum was shouting to wake us up...

yeah.. my some cuz wedding... i dunnoe who the fk he is... but we are close...

thats wad my mum say..

dress up.. went there...

wahz.. damn stupid.. they have it indon style...

the musician was there... like those in the increditble tales...

playing the weird instruments....

and the horse tradition nd stuff...

man dun ever make my wedding lidat....

i rather not get married....

well wads worst... my sis.... damn fker...

was puttin some shit face infrontof relatives...

damn paiseh... why cant they be jus smiling...

useless siblings i haf...

soon sunday n the weekends and the holidays will end...

5 more weeks and soon i will leave skool....

sad sad...

+ EmO LoVe StUck +
7:36 PM